ask me no questions i'll tell no lies

everyone should have at least two people they cannot lie to and tell everything to. and i mean everything. no not just one person, two. two opinions and minds full of suggestions to draw on, and two bodies to bear hug when it all goes wrong. and it's important that these be people you cannot and will not lie to. mine know who they are and i thank every lucky star in the sky every night that i have them in my life. i know that i can be myself and tell them everything i feel horrible about, regret, don't regret, am scared about, every stupid thing i've done etc., and that they will love me regardless. and if they think i'm being hotheaded or stupid they'll tell me so. if i'm insecure about a path i'm taking they'll help me figure out if it's what i want. and if i need a quick slap in the face to bring me back to reality, they'll do it.

thank god for them.

and of course they're there to get you drunk when you need it, take loads of pictures to make you laugh, talk about every missed chance and hottie that just walked by, and about the last time anything was good enough to do again.


in other news, i'm still undecided about the new year. well the road trip didn't happen and paris fell through (i was supposed to visit my brother and his fiance) so my whole vacation is up in the air. how's that for a lesson on living life spur of the moment. thinking about heading to cali to visit friends or just trying to do a shorter version of the original road trip. we will see. i have no desire to return to the city so soon, so anything is a better option. i've been sick lately, as 95% of my house is carpeted my dust allergies are in full swing. olive just got spayed so with her funnel around her head we are quite the pathetic looking pair all wrapped up on the couch watching movie after movie.

and suddenly i find myself falling asleep. more chatter about the new year will come soon i'm sure, but i know that i'm looking forward to it. looking forward to being a bit bolder, a bit more secure in what i want and need. it will be an adventure, that's for sure. someone once told me you change the most in your 21st year, well i've got 5 months left, bring it on.

happy holidays everyone!